I am unable to sleep. I have had one of those lazy days which included so much needed sleep. Now, my brain does not seem like it wishes to shut off. Joy.
I know I have not written in some time but I have had no motivation to write. Work takes over my days and by the time I actually have a free moment, I want to waste it on Facebook or playing Zelda. Lame, I know but it is my life at the moment. I have a had summer of enjoyable fun. I have made money. I have visited my sister in NYC. I went to South America and Haiti. I have grown. You know, the typical.
Now what? Summer is coming to an end and I am moving to Nashville. Nashville is 20 or so hours from my home, my family, what I know outside of college. With college out of the way, Nashville is the only change from my ordinary life. I have no idea what to expect. This is the first time I will be venturing away from the norm I have always know. I am excited but also anxious. I want to be successful.
My mind has been engrossed lately in who I am becoming and how I come across to others. Does this mean I am obsessing with myself? No. Literally, I want to be proud of who I am and not succumb to the pressures of what the world holds. I am not perfect. I make mistakes. I piss people off. I am sure I even intimidate people when I choose not to smile. Most people think I am a jerk. At least I know who I am and who I am trying to be. I have a ways to go but I know those who really care about me love me for who I am in the here and now. Just know though, I am trying to better myself. I always reflect on how to live my for the better on a daily basis. That has to count for something, right?
