“Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.”

  

Alright, I am back once more with a post in regards to my latest thoughts. If you know me, I think a lot about life and question my purpose. Don't get me wrong, I love life but I haven't yet found my meaning or my purpose it seems. It could possibly be right in front of my nose but I am too ignorant to notice. I am trying to create something that lasts and something I can hold on to.
      As of now, I have been thinking about everyone in my life. Whether you are here with me now or back home or around the globe, more than likely I think about you often. I am terrible at relaying that to you all. After college, I let life just sweep me away and in some ways I am scared I won't be given the benefit of the doubt. Basically, I feel guilty. There are so many people I care about and miss but they do not hear it enough. To solve this and feel like I am creating my purpose, I am going to strive to make it known that I care about you. You know who you are.



       While laying on the sofa yesterday, mindlessly watching "Jersey Shore" (forgive me), I reminded myself that no day is promised. "Am I living life to it's potential?" I asked myself. If something were to happen to me, people may say "She lived a happy life. She loved her cats and her crock pot" but who the heck wants that in their obituary? I NEED and HAVE to start LIVING LIFE! I need to run, take photos and dream a little. A little church wouldn't hurt either! I am content but I am not ecstatic and that is what I want.
        So, as I write this, I am deciding I need to make weekly goals. I want to challenge myself to explore  life a little more and true happiness. I hope you all will support me in this or do it for yourself.

xoxoxo